“Personally, I have been experiencing a very different kind of nostalgia: I miss my capacity to fall for everything.
…I miss getting caught— hook, line, sinker, reeled-straight-in— by trends, revivals, passing notions, idiot bastard styles. I am trying to re-cultivate the overwhelming enthusiasm I have had for truly, truly bad ideas. And in that spirit, I think it’s important to confess something I believe about popular music: Its quality is not nearly as important as we make it sound. There are people who will tell you that all the styles, trends, niches, tastes, and subgenres in music are just like a mall— a grand consumer affair that offers you more and more choices, less and less substance. But there’s also the thing any good advertiser will tell you about shopping: The choices you make aren’t about getting the best product. They’re about filling some kind of psychic need for the product that makes you feel smart, or feminine, or responsible. What I’ve always appreciated about music is the way it dispenses with the silly product and goes straight for the need itself; it’s honest.
Maybe you don’t see it that way; maybe I’m just a faker, a poseur, a champion vulture. But when I think back over the music I’ve loved most in my life, I find that huge chunks of that love can be explained by aspirations I had— smelly little personal needs that did not remotely care which musicians played better, sang more in tune, or wrote more inventive songs. Some of the needs were stupid, some mundane, some idealistic, some suspiciously similar to the need to feel cool. First I needed, like everyone, to decide what sort of person I wanted to be, and music is a very efficient way to figure that out by trial and error. Then I wanted to fit into spaces I found attractive; I wanted to understand people I found interesting. There were qualities I lacked, and envied in others, so I tried to steal them from music. There were qualities I had that others didn’t appreciate, so I sought out music that consoled me by saying those qualities were wonderful ones. I confess: So much of it is about what I want. So much of the great music I love traces back to some kind of pretense on my end, something I wanted to do to myself, using the music as a tool.”
-Nitsuh Abebe, Why We Fight #17